2 years ago I was in a dark place, the craziest part was that I didn’t even know it until now. I was what I thought a Christian my whole life, I went to church every Sunday & I believed there was a God & He did miracles but I had no relationship with Him. I got caught up in a bad situation & left church & thought I was saving myself.
Things kept happening around me & there was always so much drama in my life & I just thought, this is my life, this is just what life is like. There were many attempts to bring me back to the lord but I saw no point & just made excuses.
Then Easter came & the youth did a skit. It was about a girl who was lead astray & influenced by the world, until she found the lord & was protected by Him. The skit ended with Jesus & the girl dancing. I was that girl. I sat there & just cried, it was so powerful. I had experienced all of the beginning but I just wanted to experience the end.. I wanted to be dancing with jesus, I wanted to experience his love.
I came to church the following week & for the first time I heard “resurrecting” & I heard the words “by your spirit I will rise from the ashes of defeat, the resurrected King is resurrecting me” I felt it in my heart & I felt a load lift off of my shoulders.. I felt a release.
Time went on & I kept seeking the lord but at the time I had certain people around me that I put above everything & that left no room for the lord to continue what he started in me. I was relying on people of the world.
But for the first time since coming to church I received a promise. My promise is Micah 7:7, “But as for me, I watch in hope for the Lord, I wait for God my Saviour; my God will hear me.” & I just when I thought that was amazing, the next verse is “Do not gloat over me, my enemy! Though I have fallen, I will rise. Though I sit in darkness, the Lord will be my light.” & 10 months on this promise has fallen beyond true.
On Holy Spirit night I was torn apart to be rebuilt as a new Kingdom citizen, I had to repent for things I did unknowingly, there was so many decisions I had made with no thought that had to be broken. He found me defeated & full of shame & lifted me up & showed me his love & showed me my worth. I watched in hope of my lord & my god heard me.